Day 384

Went to the behavioural therapy appointment. After 45 minutes' talking, he told me I was not paranoid as I knew my fears were unreasonable. He said I was suffering from an 'intrusive rumination' - nice phrase, sounds about right. He also told me, basically, that it would go away if I knocked off drink for 3-6 months. I told him his words were hard but clear.

Lovely weather, btw: sunny and windy. More Latin in the afternoon, did a bit of pondering about the possibility of a Great Abstinence. I thought about waiting till after my birthday and perhaps doing June 1 - September 21 - 112 days, over 3½ months and with only one drink-likely anniversary, July 4th/6th. And I could celebrate Bilbo's/Frodo's birthday at the end of it. (!) But a GA would be 6 times as long as my Finals abstinence and probably pretty hard, certainly at first. Sounds like a good idea really though.