Day 1420

Implemented most of the science assignment. Revamped my studies web pages. Spent a lot of time working on Xview, eventually got a workable solution at home in the evening.

Had something of a realisation at Ferry Farthingale station: what I'm doing when I say I'm anxious is actually being distressed by the memory of having been anxious before in similar situations. I have to replace those memories with instances of being relaxed in the same situations. The genuine anxiety about a year ago was accompanied by hyperventilation etc, everything since has just been memories. The 'anxiety' thing has assumed the form of a conundrum to which I must find the answer. And this memory theory might be it.

Came home quite pleased with this, watched ST:TNG ('Every box has a way out, every puzzle has a key'). Watched a good Labour broadcast with an extended football metaphor.

Early start tomorrow. Only four more of them on the course though (a mixed blessing because it brings the exams closer!).