Day 1118

I do still feel that I am partly letting myself worry and could do more to prevent it. Could it be partly due to deliberately trying to forget about getting sacked from ABC and not addressing the issues. I'm angry with myself for being incompetent and angry with that bastard Oakham for taking out his embarassment on me. And yet I was trying to forget it walking home 15 minutes afterwards. It may well be that I was wrong to do that, these feelings have to be worked out.

I don't know if expressing feelings more like this would do me good. It seemed to work for Anne Frank, cooped up in one house for 25 months with the Gestapo after her. She managed all right, at least I can go out whenever I like even if I don't seem to be able to get a job. Certainly puts a perspective on things. Too much fucking perspective.

Fist of Fun quite good earlier, though they alienated me with a caption alleging the new 'I sense anger' Star Trek: TNG was better than good old plain Star Trek. Peter Baynham from The Harpoon is in it as well as A. McGowan.