Day 1242

Ten years since the start of the sixth form.

In the afternoon went out to Dulchester with C to have a look at the Effolk campus again; noted down bus times. Gave him advice on dedicated word processors at the retail park.

In the evening to the Crown with M, Jo J and E. Finally heard the story they were keeping so secret in August 1993 down the Swan - some stuff about discovering the boys they were with were under 16.

Reading through my diary earlier (to find the date of that occasion down the Swan) I was struck by the continuity between my past feelings and my optimistic moods now. I'd got into a mind-set where the things that happened over the last year were the chimes of doom. Where of course they were in fact events much less traumatic than many that happened to me before. It was the background of not having anything else to think about that made them seem so important. They have to be dumped overboard.